I sometimes wonder, whts the difference between a Mistake and crime!! Both are interelated with the major and perhaps the only difference being in their intensity.
And, having said that,I sit and wonder whether my follies are to be termed as a mistake or a crime or maybe something more worse. I think its the third category, something far above the minor mistakes and mere crimes.
Today, slowly a realization is dawning upon me....... That maybe the "crossroads" of my life are not actually roads but 'Dead Ends'. A road is supposed to take you somewhere, lead you to someplace but a Dead End is a dead end.
I am at total loss, for the first time, not of words but of feelings.....I can't feel anything, evrything seems to have stopped and I am like a person standing on the brink of a deep abyss and staring below. This abyss is not just anything else but a reflection of my own self, making me look like a complete stranger to myself...
It is the abyss of 'inevitability'....the inevitable fact that I have lost everything, first my Love and now my job. I stand to look into the mirror of life and find myself completely naked...naked of achievements, naked of meaning...now all that remains is that deep abyss into whose depths one day I shall be lost........
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