Mistakes III

Its 7:00 P.M. and still I am neither in peace nor in normalcy.... Not that I wish to blame anyone for the same....This is my Life and I chose it this way....
Hii Life,
I have never regretted anything more in my life - than yesterday by supporting the truth. Truth for things I have no control on, for things which were not in my hands; but today I regret that I told her.....told her to build up her faith but in the end only to fall, only to tear apart.
Today I have my own promise to burn me up ....? what should I do....??? I never knew my own commitment would punish me severly...Just wanted to tell her that unlike the world I am one and only for one...forever been for only one...but I never got the One....Just wanted to tell her how much I wish I could make her believe that I would love her forever,with the same commitment, attachment and unconditional fervour. Sadly, maybe there is none......

Life...why do u test me so ruthlessly?I don't know how much I can endure....how much I can take up..how much I can make up....

Love has set me on a test and I am writing it with Tears, Sweat, Blood and Life-force! what else can I do????